Wednesday, August 31, 2005
Today was my Science Practical. Chemistry appeared to be easier than Physics. Am gonna be dead. I don't know if i was suppose to combine two different graphs together. I just "join la. hopefully i'm right XD". haha. pray hard!!
Tml's Teachers' Day celebration in school. Bought some earrings for some of my teachers.
daddy gonna fetch me to Yani's place now for a stay-over.
I'm off. BYE!
2:20 PM
Monday, August 29, 2005
been tied down with studies these days.i really really need at least 48hrs a day.but sadly, i'm sure that if we gonna have 48hrs a day, 3/4 of the day will be spend in school.you know la, MOE's brain.
as a result, many situations are left behind my head.i'm yet to solve them.i saw rain's blog and she had this caption 'word of apology "sorry" '. i know how badly and how much you wanna me to forgive you and talk to you as usual.but its hard for me.cos i don't really know what i want and all.sigh!i'm speechless.
my plan for my birthday is up.have been planning it with my divas.2 days after my birthday will be my prelims.so,there will not be any big celebration.we'll be heading down to ECP and meet up with the skim guys-roy and the rest.and there,we'll be having a small celebration.everyone's invited.give me a call if you guys are coming or just tag here aite.
see you'al at ECP on the 10th of Sept. Happy 17th Birthday to me then.Hah.
Back to mug.
11:57 AM
Tuesday, August 23, 2005
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Cina & Melayu - the best pair of girlfriend.
With the fact that we constant prata house every afternoon and trainings have ended like more than 3mths ago? All of us are constantly adding on weight. This has to stop right now. Before i can't fit into my favourite pair of jeans from Flesh Imp & my Levis type 1. Ah. How am i going to control this eating habit of mine? Difficult la.
Today i was PMS-ing in school. And well-known for that, everyone else don't dare to speak a single word to me. I shouted straight into Nat's face, which was B-A-D la. Ridwan, Surizan and the rest were there. Despite that, i continuing scolding all those ugly-pieces-of-shitty-words. And everyone went like 'what happened?'.
Upon receiving my Maths test results this morning, I almost teared. But i held them back. I was thinking should i be happy with my results or sad? then i asked Mdm Ang 'why did i do so badly these days?'. she then said,'bring your paper to me. i show you the mistakes.' fcuk la. all careless. pardon me for my language XD
I'm really screwed la.
Anyways, i wanna wish Geraldine aka Geri aka Gerri aka Mols aka my girl all the best to her and her Aloysius Vetha. You finally settle down with him. And you better not repeat your mistakes again ya. On top of this, you better study hard before your Godpa go chasing after Vetha :)
Oh ya, i found out that "SHE's" angry because her ex-boyfriend kept calling me and even asked me out. Oh wells, jealous? Don't worry la. I wouldn't go with him too. I wouldn't use your OLD CLOTHES! Ha-Ha.
Yani's on the way to my place for study session. CIAOS!
Yani & I in school's atrium.
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My class's girls in the toliet. 5A1 rawks XD
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8:40 AM
Monday, August 22, 2005
P.S. I know that the past 2nd entry was contridicting. I could thought of 3 persons in my heart at the same time? But I must admit that it was the fact. And this may scare some of you off, there's still another one. Sigh. Double sigh.
K-Ci & JoJo - All My Life
Baby (x11)
I'm So Glad...
I Will Never Find Another Lover
Sweeter Than You
Sweeter Than You
And I Will Never Find Another Lover
More Precious Than You
More Precious Than You
Girl You Are..
Close To Me You're Like My Mother,
Close To Me You're Like My Father,
Close To Me You're Like My Sister,
Close To Me You're Like My Brother
And You Are The Only One My Everything
And For You This Song I Sing....
All My Life
I Prayed For Someone Like You
And I Thank God
That I..That I Finally Found You
All My Life
I Prayed For Someone Like You
And I Hope That You Feel The Same Way Too
Yes, I Pray That You Do Love Me Too
I'd Send You All That I'm Thinking Of........Baby
Said I Promise To Never Fall In Love With A Stranger
You're All I'm Thinking Of
I Praise The Lord Above
For Sending Me Your Love
I Cherish Every Hug
I Really Love You
All My Life (Ohhhh..Baby, Baby)
I Prayed For Someone Like You
And I Thank God
That I...That I Finally Found You
All My Life
I Prayed For Someone Like You
And I Hope That You Feel The Same Way Too
Yes, I Pray That You Do Love Me Too
You're All That I Ever Know,
When You Smile All My Face Always Seems To Glow,
You Turned My Life Around,
You Picked Me Up When I Was Down,
You're All That I've Ever Known,
When You Smile My Face Glows
You Picked Me Up When I Was Down
Say...You're All That I've Ever Known
When You Smile My Face Glows
You Picked Me Up When I Was Down
And I Hope That You
Feel The Same Way Too
Yes, I Pray That You Do Love Me Too
And All My Life
I Prayed For Someone Like You
And I Thank God
That I..That I Finally Found You
All My Life
I Prayed For Someone Like You
Yes, I Pray That You Do Love Me Too
All My Life
I Prayed For Someone Like You
And I Thank God
That I ..That I Finally Found You
All My Life
I Prayed For Someone Like You
Yes, I Pray That You Do Love Me Too
(Fading)
And All My Life
I Prayed For Someone Like You
And I Thank God That I...That I Finally Found You.....
This song is playing since 11am. Thanks to Gerri! She was saying this song when we were studying at Mac with some of her St Nick's friends the other day.
So yes, life hasn't been good. I had a minor argument with Rain the other day. But eventually, it became a major one. It was because our personalities clashes. On top of that, I couldn't stand the way she carry out her procedures. Both parties are at fault. I know that. However, i think that i need to cool down. Give us a test of time. If things really goes on well on my side - things as in my studies and all, we can talk things out or something. I know it hurts that just because of money matter, we broke our friendship. But there's many other factors to it. Unfortunately, i don't wanna mention it.
Natalie asked me why am I doing things in a evil way lately. She knew that I have deleted Rain's, Zaki's & Cheeky's number. What more can I do? Whenever I look into my contact list in my mobile, endless thoughts keep coming to me. I find myself a failure. A failure who can't stand strong to face the world. Perhaps, I shall be alone for some time. I'm too emotional for all these. I control myself not to be soft hearted. One day, I know that I have to face this reality.
Social Studies paper in a week's time. History paper's in 2 weeks time. And hell, I haven't started studying for all these. I neglected my studies so much. Whenever I have the mood to study, I sit on my desk and thought about all these shits. I need someone right here with me. Sigh...
After prelims, i have to study for my Os. I feel that everything's unaccomplished. Everything seems in a mess. Meeting deadlines have been a chaos. I failed to meet them all. I'm in deep shit!
My birthday's coming 2 days before my History paper. Again, i doubt so that i'll be celebrating. 10 of September.
I could see no future in myself. I don't know why am i thinking of all these. Perhaps i'm thinking too much!
4:50 AM
Sunday, August 21, 2005
I was sleeping the whole of Saturday. WASTED! I woke up at 12am. Found myself hungry. Then i decided to order Macdonalds at 2:30am. It only came 5 minutes ago. When i opened the bag, i found out that they gave me the wrong order. I called up the Mac Centre immediately. So they gonna give me a replacement in 30mins time. Their service is so lousy! Goodness. I wonder what will be become if i'm really starving. Haha.
Imagine having Grilled Chicken Foldover & Mcwings in the middle of the night? Hah.
For all i know, i'm gonna concentrate on my studies. After my exams, i will be concentrating on slimming down. Give me the courage! :)
After talking to Clara & KeJia in the afternoon, i felt so much better. They're really the best among everyone else! You go girls!!!
7:27 PM
Saturday, August 20, 2005
No, it isn't. These few Fridays, I have been spending them in school till freaking late. For today, I have to stay till 9pm! See that?! Yes, 9pm. It's rather saddening that I don't get to spend my weekends with my ladies. Ah, sorry girls!
I miss KEJIA & CLARA!! So muchhhhhhh ...
Oh ya, my bestie - Xiao Qiang is back. He kind of went missing. HAHA! Glad that you're back on this earth XD
Busy, busy, real busy .................. Sucha drag~
5:23 AM
Friday, August 12, 2005
I've been controlling myself not to come online. Since i've on the com to do my coursework, i'm online now. Something surprising happened. Let me start off with a question. What's a crash and what's love all about? Definition? Many of them. Alright, so now, it's my second time of the year saying goodbye to this 2 guys that we sort off dated. Firstly, Munifahanis. Memories do flash back at times. Like when Roy asked me to hang out with them one of these days. I don't dare to. And i can't bear to see him holding hands with another girl. Tears will just roll down my eyes. It takes everything to cry. Secondly, Zaki. Okay, i must admit that .. WHATEVER! I don't wanna say it. Now, we've gone for a break. He wanna be alone. So let it be. I don't wanna bother all these. I'm trying not too. It's difficult.
2 more weeks to prelims. I guess i gonna screw all my papers up. AHHHH!! F*ck.Goodbye!
1:37 PM
Thursday, August 11, 2005
I'm rather busy these days. Every night, I sleep for less than 4 hours before i head to school. Like on Sunday, I didn't catch a nap. I did my cousework till 6am (on Monday), bath and headed to school. Despite having holidays for 2 days, I didn't spent them wisely. On Monday, after National Day celebration in school, i went to Prata house for breakfast with my girls. After math, met Zaki and together with Yani and Zack, we went to catch a movie at J8 - Wedding Crashes. A must catch movie! It made me laugh though my eyes were shutting VERY SOON. Hah. Reached home at around 7pm. I slept straight away XD
On Tuesday, i had tuition in the morning. Went over to Yani's place before we went to Yishun for some National Day celebration with her parents. The place was crowded. Met Zaki and Ming in the evening and went down to esplanade. We squeezed ourselves through, from City Hall MRT station to Esplanade. COOL!
And today, I did some catching up with my school work. Still not done till now (3.01am). I'm dead beat now.
Goodnight people!
6:02 PM
Monday, August 08, 2005
This word describes how i'm feeling these days.
Alright, just say that i'm sick and tired of everything lil' things in life, or everything that's happening in life.
Life's like a palette of colours. There is red, blue, green, black and white colour. Once, my life was black in colour...
Every single night, without fail, we would end with a sad tone and hang the phone up. It hurts me. It's still hurting me. And yesterday, you suddenly blew your top. I don't know what to do. I stopped the arguement by saying sorry to you. I hope you will understand me better.
I'm always the one who's saying sorry despite you're the one at wrong (i assume). And when i told you this, you would say that you shall leave my life as you're adding stress in me. I didn't mean this. You assumed too! I know that you've to work and study at the same time. But what about me? I've to mug hard for my Os. You told my friend that you don't wanna disturb my studies. True! By doing this (showing me that you're angry), you're making me feeling unsure of your actions.
I'm penning all these down not because i wanna you to feel bad. I just want to pen it all down and leave it all behide my head. I know you will think negatively. This is just to give you an assurance.
Life's been sucky! Real sucky!
Small lil' tiny things that will affect my mood will make tears roll down my cheeks.
Bye people.
I've got no mood to continue blogging for this moment.
Emo + Stress!
Leave me alone!
5:19 AM
Thursday, August 04, 2005
I've caught that bugger who stole my hp and wallet. Obviously he didn't know that my school has many CCTVs around. And with his immatured way of thinking, he delibrately took them from my bag right in front of one of the CCTVs in my school's canteen. And now he's begging me to let me go through one of my teacher. Should I? Many told me not to. The worst is that the police told me that my hp was damaged la. F*ck! My bro wanna use that phone when it's back. Now, look at how much we've wasted. I will ask for compensations. My amore membership card and cash ($20, which means a lot to me. I'm freaking broke la.) are both gone la. sighsigh* That bugger's mother wanna meet me up to return me the things and apologise. I'll be asking my dad along. I will not be so stupid to go alone :)
Next up, guess what?! Ah ya, I think many had guessed it right la. My Fruit Diet failed. All because of all the temptations which caused Gerri & I to say "haiya, cannot tahan la. HAHA!", and we started to eat and eat. Getting fatter day by day.
Friday is coming real soon. Everyone must be thinking it's gonna be another partying weekend. But NO! It's going to a unusual weekend for me. I'll be spending most of the time at home completely all my work. I've been rather lazy these days. No energy to mug anymore. HOW?! I always fall asleep when I'm doing my work half way through. And when i set the alarm clock to wake up at a certain time to wake up and complete my work, when i'm awake it's time for me to get ready for school. And before i step into the Principal Office for some punishment or you call that lecturing session, i'll finish my F&N coursework by tml. Nicely done with my effort and hand it in.
Love y'all.
12:29 PM
Monday, August 01, 2005
Life's been rather messed up. It's becoming worse with each passing day.
First of all, i got to bump into this LOSER at Bishan the other day. Can you imagine he kind of argued with me and splashed water on my feets. On that particular day, my brother got the news and wanna "lecture" him. When he saw us, he RAN away. A few days after that incident, i met him at Bishan again. This time, he don't even dare to sit at the table infront of mine. He just walked away with those AH BENG'S hands swaying left and right. The other time, we met him again, he ran behind a shop or something and hide. We saw him peeping out. WHAT A LOSER?!
Secondly, some bugger stole my handphone & wallet. The first thing i did was to report to the General Office. Apparently, they don't give a damn la. After searching a few common place in my school compound, i headed home (i was only left with a dollar in my pocket. the rest was in my wallet.). Got lectured from my brother. Then he brought me to a nearby police station and reported. My IC and all was inside la. SHIT! That bugger is whatever you call him. But he's someone that do not need one's respect. Screw him~
My dad being the nicest person to me (sometimes), bought a new phone for me. Hah. So now i got my all-time-favourite N7610. Thanks daddy!
Now i' ve to save A LOT OF MONEY to have my IC replaced and a new wallet. That IC is a killer. It's enough to kill me. $100 i think. AHHHHH!
As for school work, i'm totally screwed la. Sigh. I don't know what am i thinking about.
Tml is the start of my fruit diet with Gerri. Fruits, fruits and more fruits. Hah. Endure man!!
Bye for now.
12:51 PM